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[letsgosailing]

Today I have to talk to a good friend on the phone, as well as my mom, and I am dreading both. It makes me feel horribly guilty, physically sick, and exhausted to even think about it and I don't understand how I got this way. I don't know when it started, or why, but suddenly, interaction is too much. I'd like to go running, but I don't want to leave my house because I just don't want to deal with the thought of being seen - which is stupid anyway, because no one is looking at me.